短发

头发是三千烦恼丝。。。
好自豪，我已经5个月没有剪头发了！（从新年到现在）
因为炎日的天气所逼，今天只好乖乖上理发院。
对不起，没有遵守约定一块留长，因为实在没时间料理长发。
发信好久没碰华文书的我，有好多成语和字体都渐渐忘记了！！

终于考完了这学期的测验。
松了一口气， 但也不认为开学会有空休息。
加油吧，同学们！

病也痊愈了。
希望天气会好一些，少些变换吧!
也愿自己的身体能就此强壮起来！
大家要多照顾身体。

love, like, admiration or what?

hate to face problems of friendship and love.
they are jus things that u feel that u can't see and can't control

used to hav the confused idea of those 3 feelings that i mentioned above.
why? jus naive i guess..
but as i grow up, i realise there are jus so much to love and r'ship, pressure of acceptance u hav to face from everyone in ur new formed r'ship that love becomes not purely love anymore. and when u get married and form a family, things get worst and it becomes a responsibility on top of the love that u promised each other.
so i asked myself, is it that hard to find that someone to be in love with??
i guess when he comes then the problems will jus hav an ans to them.
cos its to face it together, and not by myself.:)
not really hopeful abt that though, lol.
but really hopeful for my friends arnd me to get theirs!!
its time to get start searching, in ur youth days, to engross in some romance!
i wish ur all the best:)
its not jus abt opening ur eyes to find that person, its looking for the right person!
they might just be around the bend or jus beside u:)

wells, they were talking abt how the guy will look like for themselves and for mine.
u might jus stop what u are doing right now and start imagining...
in my dreams he doesn't hav a face, lol.
so, i gave up trying to imagine, and tht its not smt i want to do.
for me, i guess i'll jus figure out in reality how these three feelings feel different.

is it a lifestyle choice?

a few of my course mates started smoking,
though i don't really know them and this didn't happen recently,
i still wld like to blog abt this-reason being that their smoke is disturbing me.
lol.
they are young, healthy and i wonder why they smoke to destress despite of other things they want to do?

a friend me that his jc friends are social smoker, and said he thinks its only their lifestyle choice. or is it??

jus wonder what i'll be thinking of, what others will think of me and whether it was my choice to do it if i ever start smoking one day...i'm sure i look ugly then.
forced by the environment? no, its jus an excuse.

profession switching?

this last week of hols has been quite disastrous..
was down with flu and fever and sore throat and only feeling much better today.
thank you, very fierce doc:)ur med does heals.

was in sch and had lunch with my clique for 3 days,
will miss the days..

they hav been talking about switching professions these days,
means studying this and continuing with some thing else later on...
its nth that unusual nowadays, cos ppl usually can't ans whst they really like in their course of study aft they hav studied in a sense they don't hav that passion anymore. my school research libarian holds an engineering degree too.
but big qns is what if u chose something else and u find that its not what u want?
ppl don't jus make one mistake and really know what they want afterwards, right?
so, what do u really want to do? or what do u really want out of ur life?

i tht i'll jus come out to work aft my diploma, but i reconisder and asked myself- is that what i really want to spend my peak years doing?
but what else can i do? certainly, i don't think i want to further course but what do i want to study? i'm not satisfied with only a diploma, right? cos what do i want to think of myself when my jc friends graduate with a degree, honours, n even a doctorate? and it was my dream since young to wear the square hat:)

most crucial deciding factor: time and money.

~recover soon, me and my sick friends :)

A promise.

我们约定好明年的六月九号， 七点正在克拉玛头。
希望到时我们能履行承诺。

dedication for us:)

一起开始的旅程

忽然想到一起开始的旅程
这几个字有种温暖的气氛
如果用来形容我们
是不是很巧妙传神
从没想过事情会这样发生
原本陌生的人闯进了人生
从此生命中多出你们
也多出无限可能
一起作伴 一起游玩
一起分享 青春的宝藏
一起前进 一起转弯
一起想下一个梦想
my baby you baby
什么都不想错过
用心感动
这旅程中
因你而加倍的感动
my baby you baby
让我多记下一些沿路 感受
那将会是我 最美最好的收获

这是一段我们秘密的旅程
别人很难了解其中的兴奋
可惜我没空理会他们
我在意的只有你们

一起作伴 一起游玩
一起分享 青春的宝藏
一起前进 一起转弯
一起想下一个梦想
my baby you baby
什么都不想错过
用心感动
这旅程中
因你而加倍的感动
my baby you baby
让我多记下一些沿路 感受
那将会是我 最美最好的收获

感谢你愿意陪伴我
不然我将会多么寂寞
不然如何能把泪水
变成回忆的彩虹

一起作伴 一起游玩
一起分享 青春的宝藏
一起前进 一起转弯
一起想下一个梦想
my baby you baby
什么都不想错过
用心感动
这旅程中
因你而加倍的感动
my baby you baby
让我多记下一些沿路 感受
那将会是我 最美最好的收获

thanks lylyn:)
shall copy this song so i'll always rmb and nvr forsake!

its hurts to see that ur are unhappy and disappointed,
so cheer up, ks!!!

the last thing to do?

case 1:
if ur doctor tells u you will lose the ability to walk in a year's time,
what is the thing u will do b4 u lose ur legs?
will u give up now or do u want to treasure the year?

case 2:
if u are struggling for help when u are drowning in the big sea,
what will u be thinking of?
what will happen if u die or how to save urself?

my ans for case 1 is i will quit school and attempt to travel as many places as i can in this one year. aft this one year i will hav no regrets being bounded to the wheelchair for life.

for case 2 i will think of both, cos i can't swim well n most prob can't save myself without any help. lol.

what changed?

we realise people change when you don't be with them for some time, rather than you will realise people change when you are with them throughout.

or

its cos we spent less time together, so we changed the way we communicate with each other? And cos we don't communicate with each other therefore u think i hav changed?

ultimately its communication that will break the barrier btwn people.
its not just about what actually happened or changed.:)

i don;t think i hav changed, though. and...i'm still waiting for ur reply [=

By fate or by chance?

even kids know that there are 2 sides to a coin..
but at only one time when the coin is lying flat, only one side will be shown..

the coin, has helped me to decide when i have been indecisive, as i hav always been..
so, when the coin shows u THE side,
do u think its by fate or by chance?

whats the difference btwn fate and chance?
fate is decided by someone in the first place; no matter how many times, it'll still be the same.
chance is = just happen to be; it might be different the next time.

what do u think? when ur decision lies in a metal lifeless thing?
by fate or by chance??
or wld u not be as silly to toss a coin to decide?
but it happens in real life too, when u make any decision - will it be different if i changed my choice in some part of my life?

The umbrella man

do u believe in coincidence or fate?
i do.
so i always leave things up to chances.
its not a gd habit cos many opprtunities will slip by
and nvr come knocking on the door again...

mths ago, i saw this umbrella seller on the streets, he had this very cute umbrella with koala prints. i liked it but i didn't buy even though i went forward to ask abt the price.
the same week, i saw him again. this time i went forward to eye at the umbrella and said this to myself:" if i see this umbrella seller for the 3rd time, i'll buy the umbrella from him."

mths past.
i still loiter around those streets, but there was no sign of him.
it was only till today that i met him again. yes, it took me so long to get the umbrella which i had eyed from the start.
this time round, i thought the rabbit prints was nicer, so i bought that instead.
New umbrella w rabbit prints, sure it'll make me rainy days happier:)


question is, why do i always want to leave things up to fate- cos i can't really decide on my own.

Sch hols..

stacks of reference books,
numerous adobe files n ppt in the com,
packed schedule.

yes,this is what we hav to do during the jun break-.-"

looking forward to breakfast, ktv and shopping (for the rare few times, cos i finally hav things to buy) although i hasn't seen very much of a disc at marina square.

slping late into the morning, this is so not myself.
well, what do u do when u realise u hasn't been urself?
for me, i think, reflect and wonder why, if it was not a deliberate action to change myself.

its only when u face up to urself, u cvan increase ur own self esteem, if u rely on others to boost ur esteem, u'll go back to ur hole and become depressed again.

are my bad hair days over??

its time to be stressed.

hols is comin and i'm feeling stressed.
fyp is stressful..
planning for e subj to come in, to account to the teacher i/c, to discuss with my grp members...
then ther's clinic.
rushing to west coast, rushing lunch, searchig for the teacher to get signatures an to complete the examination within scheduled time...

even talking and eating is becoming stressful to me.
lol..
i wry when i don't feel like eating and i wry when i'm eating too much...>.<

why shld there b MST for CLS...

sry for whining.-.-"
thanks for ur consolation.

E gd old times:)

when the memories of my past 2 years of poly sch life floods back to me...
when the ppl i meet in the past appears back in my life..
when i go back to do the same old things i used to hav an interest for..

y, i do miss the old times.
thats reminiscence.

~its hard to preserve r'ship in the same state as it is but u can treasure ur happy times and NOW.

to all my friends:

do live happily!
don't jus say sorry aft u hav hurt them or regret ur actions.
those doean't help, its a change of mindset that does!
BE HAPPY
not jus for urself but also for those arnd who can't help worrying for u when u frown ur eyebrows. :)

and rmb:
ur friends don't owe u anything, and the world does not revolve arnd u, so don't take their gdwill for guranteed.

Short story.

smt i can't rmb where i read from some time ago in chinese version:

this mum was devastated when her child died. she kept crying becos she could not bear the departure of her beloved child.
Ppl recommended her to see this high reverend who was renowned for curing "heart diseases".
aft the reverend heard abt her story, he pictured a story in her mind:

~ all the children has a lighted candle in their hand when they walk together to heaven.
but the mum saw that the candle on her child's hand was the only one that is not lighted up.
she then asked the reverend why and he told her, because ur tears extinguish the flame of ur child's candle.

the mum heard this and nvr cry for the child's death again.

for this post is dedicated to all those ppl whose family members died in the two devastating disaster that happened in myanmar and china.
Condolences..

Live Killing.

was at the market ytd morning and "witnessed" how they killed the live frog:

1. the frog is catched from the water tank.
2. the killer knocks the frog unconscious on the chopping board
3. the mouth and eyes are cut away with a scissors
4. the intestines are drained out of the body
5. the skin is peeled and pulled away.
6. wash the bloody body and yes, chop it into pieces.

i ate it for dinner.>_<

its summer time.

its been quite long since i dropped a note here..
time really files much faster in sch trying to meet datelines and fulfill clinic quota than working at the retail..LOL.
it may be stressful when the due dates draws near, but i do enjoy my days in sch:)

i certainly enjoy joking with my friends but smt when u want to smile to ur clsmates, u realise none of their exp is that cheery.>.<
sighs, i really like the way they pat my head, laugh at me, giggle with me, and pay attention to let me complete what i hav to say.
i jus hope they'll be happier in sch!!
No obligations and rules to that.

what can i do to put a smile on ur faces??

HAPPY mother's day!

thank u mum, for working so hard for the family and caring so much for me, and for feeding me fatter each n every day...lol:)
i'm sry for talking back at u and bugging u ><

recruiting subj!!

hey, hello..its getting dead over here..
anyway, been busy with the things i hav to do:
journals
jap h/w
and most imptly my FYP:

Contrast sensitivity for young adults of 16 - 25
here's the criteria for subjects:
+less than 1.00D diff btwn 2 eyes
+astig of less than 0.75D in either one eye
+Rx of less than 4.00D

benefits:
+$100!
+a pair of free specs

sounds attractive enough?

here's how we conduct the study:
u need to spend arnd 27 hrs with us.
simple tasks u need to fulfill during the study.
u jus hav to read a passage and then take a simple test that allows u to see gratings( no regards to the passage u read).
thats all.
pls contact me if u are keen to be my subj!! thanks:)

pyjamas party!!

this is a interesting photo w interesting strangers.
they were parading down orchard road in pyjamas!! ..as u can see.
so we jubilantly joined in the fun. :)
when i asked them where they were from...
"mummy's stomach!"
LOL.

gettin well soon.

during this period while i was badly sick, my cls mates shown lots of concern for me:)sometimes i feel forgotten cos i don't do a lot of things together with them but not this time:
HL asked me on msn, qh msged me, lilin asked me with the two of tehm in cls, Sh wrote on my lec notes " get well soon" and got close to me even though it was contagious.
thank yous. :)