woke up early, 2am to do ms lek's ppt.
i finally hav a clue!!! on what i am doing
lol.:)
now its 5.42 on the clock, less than 1 hr to the time i was supposed to wake up for class...
means i'm not gg to hav any sleep exp from last night, which i accidentally went to bed at 9.
9 to 2, at least i slept for 5 hrs?!
do u guys do this?
waiting for the hangover of a "sleepless" night,
it'll drown me of my sorrows cos i hav no residual energy to wry abt anything else.
wish me loads on luck to conc my leftover resources on my activities later^^
indeed sry is smt polite yet hurts.
thats the last thing anyone wants to hear?
u can't be angry cos the person is polite yet, it hurts.
Thursday, November 27, 2008
要如何衡量呢？
对感情总是束手无策。
不因为没经过，而因为感情上的事没有对错，没有空平不空平。
感情本来就无法精确衡量。
不去要求别人做选择，
人都有七情六欲。
己所不欲又为何施于别人呢？
最后选择放弃，不是因为不值得，
而是自己不喜欢纠缠。
放弃对大家都好。
我没那么伟大，刻意去成全别人，
是自私的我想先得到解脱。
不因为没经过，而因为感情上的事没有对错，没有空平不空平。
感情本来就无法精确衡量。
不去要求别人做选择，
人都有七情六欲。
己所不欲又为何施于别人呢？
最后选择放弃，不是因为不值得，
而是自己不喜欢纠缠。
放弃对大家都好。
我没那么伟大，刻意去成全别人，
是自私的我想先得到解脱。
Tuesday, November 25, 2008
Sunday, November 23, 2008
Outing.
finally the first officiai cls outing in this year...
we went to the zoo.
it was a beautiful sunday morning, sunny and perfect for a family outing.
so we hang out with our lecturers, ms lek, ms tan, niece + husband, mr konda and family, mr sim and parents...
how can the whole grp walked arnd tgt in the crowded zoo like today?
so we split ways and walk in our cliques.
do u call that bonding as a gathering, well one thing for sure is that we entered the zoo tgt:) lol.
anyway aft being so longwinded, pt is we went to the zoo and everyone jus did what they like without much time spent as a class tgt...only hi n bye when we walked past each other.
i do agree it was fun to be outdoors under the scorching sun aft being indoors most of the time in sch. i did enjoyed the sweat and bath at lilin's hse and had fun reminiscing my time in the zoo as a kid.
there are features that they upgraded like the kidzworld, but the objective of the zoo nvr changes- its abt animals! ^^ somehow the animals, esp the giraffe and the zebra look much prettier than i rmbered! and the kidz playground became like a great pool instead of the past normal playground with sand.
such fond memories of the zoo since childhood...
i think i was pri 3 back then.
so tired nowadays, its not that i;m getting old, its jus that i'm getting drained.
i can't feel my soul, i'm jus an empty body walking arnd lifelessly.
we went to the zoo.
it was a beautiful sunday morning, sunny and perfect for a family outing.
so we hang out with our lecturers, ms lek, ms tan, niece + husband, mr konda and family, mr sim and parents...
how can the whole grp walked arnd tgt in the crowded zoo like today?
so we split ways and walk in our cliques.
do u call that bonding as a gathering, well one thing for sure is that we entered the zoo tgt:) lol.
anyway aft being so longwinded, pt is we went to the zoo and everyone jus did what they like without much time spent as a class tgt...only hi n bye when we walked past each other.
i do agree it was fun to be outdoors under the scorching sun aft being indoors most of the time in sch. i did enjoyed the sweat and bath at lilin's hse and had fun reminiscing my time in the zoo as a kid.
there are features that they upgraded like the kidzworld, but the objective of the zoo nvr changes- its abt animals! ^^ somehow the animals, esp the giraffe and the zebra look much prettier than i rmbered! and the kidz playground became like a great pool instead of the past normal playground with sand.
such fond memories of the zoo since childhood...
i think i was pri 3 back then.
so tired nowadays, its not that i;m getting old, its jus that i'm getting drained.
i can't feel my soul, i'm jus an empty body walking arnd lifelessly.
Thursday, November 20, 2008
class tee!
was really touched when i saw everyone in cls wearing the cls tee...
well, its been quite some time since we wore a class tee, ever since year 1.
really laughed quite a lot during today's attendance taking when my teacher called our reg no instead of our names, cos the cls jersey has our index no at the back.
then everyone turned to show the teacher the no to prove.
no matter what, i thank everyone, for u are part of the class that i love.:)
and i thank ms dawn for giving us so many ideas.
i think the class will like her more each day.
i like u ms tan!
well, its been quite some time since we wore a class tee, ever since year 1.
really laughed quite a lot during today's attendance taking when my teacher called our reg no instead of our names, cos the cls jersey has our index no at the back.
then everyone turned to show the teacher the no to prove.
no matter what, i thank everyone, for u are part of the class that i love.:)
and i thank ms dawn for giving us so many ideas.
i think the class will like her more each day.
i like u ms tan!
Wednesday, November 19, 2008
commentary.
from monday's my paper which i can't agree more abt the white tiger incident:
an animal is an animal, aggravate it and it will do exactly what it does every time.
yes our zoo could do more to enhance the security of its enclosures.
not to keep the animals out but, ironically, to keep the humans out.
it is quite illogical that it has to come to this.
but this is necessary because of one thing that will nvr change.
the nature of the beast may be explainable, but the nature of man is something we can nvr understand.
an animal is an animal, aggravate it and it will do exactly what it does every time.
yes our zoo could do more to enhance the security of its enclosures.
not to keep the animals out but, ironically, to keep the humans out.
it is quite illogical that it has to come to this.
but this is necessary because of one thing that will nvr change.
the nature of the beast may be explainable, but the nature of man is something we can nvr understand.
Tuesday, November 18, 2008
racing with time.
or am i??
racing to do so many things before term ends, thats explains why i haven't been blogging too...
not that i hav nth to blog but cos i have no time to type and recollect my thts.
thats sounds sad, for someone who enjoys day dreaming so much.
its like somebody shouting in my ear and telling me to wake up this instance.
its the feeling when ms tan looks at me with her big palpebral aperture.
smt it feels like everything is collapsing even though there's no earthquake in any part of the world right now.
really trying to destress admist all this.
i won't hav time to destress unless i learn how to manage my time.
or shld i ask for a break?
follow me: breathe in and breathe out:)
racing to do so many things before term ends, thats explains why i haven't been blogging too...
not that i hav nth to blog but cos i have no time to type and recollect my thts.
thats sounds sad, for someone who enjoys day dreaming so much.
its like somebody shouting in my ear and telling me to wake up this instance.
its the feeling when ms tan looks at me with her big palpebral aperture.
smt it feels like everything is collapsing even though there's no earthquake in any part of the world right now.
really trying to destress admist all this.
i won't hav time to destress unless i learn how to manage my time.
or shld i ask for a break?
follow me: breathe in and breathe out:)
Friday, November 14, 2008
whats the diagnosis?
finally hav time to see the doc cos there's no sch today!
one of the rare days.:)
anyways, aft i spoke to the doc abt my diarrhoea which persisted again,
i told him abt the bruises that doesn;t seem to go away aft weeks.
he probed abt more questions related to the blood but in the end still unable to tell me the diagnosis,
he only told me " if u hav more bruises then pls do come back and inform me."
ther's a feeling that the bruises might be a sign of an underlying systemic problem that i am not aware of...
one of the rare days.:)
anyways, aft i spoke to the doc abt my diarrhoea which persisted again,
i told him abt the bruises that doesn;t seem to go away aft weeks.
he probed abt more questions related to the blood but in the end still unable to tell me the diagnosis,
he only told me " if u hav more bruises then pls do come back and inform me."
ther's a feeling that the bruises might be a sign of an underlying systemic problem that i am not aware of...
Wednesday, November 12, 2008
she lived on.
i watch the tuesday reports every tuesday night.
today's story was abt a woman who was disfigured when she was attacked by an assasin.
unfortunately for her, the assasin was so violent that her hair was pulled out, her lips couldn't even move, her nose bridge broke etc...
when the docs were resucitating her, they told her family that she only had a 30% chance to live.
but she survived the ordeal.
when the nurse unbandaged her, she couldn't believe what she saw in the mirror.
she was really horrified at her looks.
at first she didn't dare to walk out of her hse.
she was so depressed with her looks that she attempted suicide.
finally, she tht thru and slowly begin to accept herself.
she started off small, like going to the market with "such looks" and pretended to be oblivious to the curious stares arnd her.
now she dares to walk down orchard by herself, exercises, dances and gives inspirational talks to the audience in her church on stage .
she recalled on one of her talks, a 20 year old approached her and told her that she herself has commited suicide for 5 times; she thinks the first person to commit suicide shld be her, yet she still lives on strongly.
at the end of the show, there was a caption:
she said if she was able to repeat all over again, she will still prefer her present life. because that incident which caused her so much pain physically and emotionally taught her the purpose and meaning of life.
this story does not only speaks of her strong will to live but also tells us that looks does not give u the self confidence. true self confidence comes from ur inner self, not on ur looks; jus like happiness will not last if it came from external sources.
today's story was abt a woman who was disfigured when she was attacked by an assasin.
unfortunately for her, the assasin was so violent that her hair was pulled out, her lips couldn't even move, her nose bridge broke etc...
when the docs were resucitating her, they told her family that she only had a 30% chance to live.
but she survived the ordeal.
when the nurse unbandaged her, she couldn't believe what she saw in the mirror.
she was really horrified at her looks.
at first she didn't dare to walk out of her hse.
she was so depressed with her looks that she attempted suicide.
finally, she tht thru and slowly begin to accept herself.
she started off small, like going to the market with "such looks" and pretended to be oblivious to the curious stares arnd her.
now she dares to walk down orchard by herself, exercises, dances and gives inspirational talks to the audience in her church on stage .
she recalled on one of her talks, a 20 year old approached her and told her that she herself has commited suicide for 5 times; she thinks the first person to commit suicide shld be her, yet she still lives on strongly.
at the end of the show, there was a caption:
she said if she was able to repeat all over again, she will still prefer her present life. because that incident which caused her so much pain physically and emotionally taught her the purpose and meaning of life.
this story does not only speaks of her strong will to live but also tells us that looks does not give u the self confidence. true self confidence comes from ur inner self, not on ur looks; jus like happiness will not last if it came from external sources.
Tuesday, November 11, 2008
the tutoring session.
had tuitioning from mr sim.
he talked abt the different aspects of life.
he reiterated the point on my previous blog post.
no one could hav done a better job than him.
what we all took back will impact on our life greatly.
that day when we share cab with him, he got on the cab and asked the driver:
"how are u today".
u shld hav seen our faces. lol.
what i admire abt him most, is the way he interacts with others and the way he gives everyone attention without anyone feeling left out.
and we slowly got used to him 'twitching' his eyes:)
he talked abt the different aspects of life.
he reiterated the point on my previous blog post.
no one could hav done a better job than him.
what we all took back will impact on our life greatly.
that day when we share cab with him, he got on the cab and asked the driver:
"how are u today".
u shld hav seen our faces. lol.
what i admire abt him most, is the way he interacts with others and the way he gives everyone attention without anyone feeling left out.
and we slowly got used to him 'twitching' his eyes:)
Sunday, November 9, 2008
happiness.
being happy does not mean happy things happen to u;
being happy means feeling contented abt the things in ur life.
~don't ask for more in life, u will nvr be happy. treasure what what u hav instead. :)
being happy means feeling contented abt the things in ur life.
~don't ask for more in life, u will nvr be happy. treasure what what u hav instead. :)
Wednesday, November 5, 2008
Diarrhoea
tht i didn't hav time to go to the doc,
so i sat on the toilet seat, thinking hard when it started...
i didn't realise it has been 6 days ><
i hate diarrhoea cos it stinks and i can't eat well!!!
ok, get well soon, hui min!(:
do u know of teck aun chi kit pills??
so i sat on the toilet seat, thinking hard when it started...
i didn't realise it has been 6 days ><
i hate diarrhoea cos it stinks and i can't eat well!!!
ok, get well soon, hui min!(:
do u know of teck aun chi kit pills??
Sunday, November 2, 2008
RGP wearer.
i started wearing rgp lenses.
As most ppl in my course know, rgp lenses is the most uncomfortable thing u shld insert onto ur eye.
it'll be two weeks, if i wear my lenses tmr!
but i seriously do need an aftercare, its still uncomfortable aft adaptation.
how?
mb my tears are really viscous.
one of the side effects of rgp.
i tried my best alr.
As most ppl in my course know, rgp lenses is the most uncomfortable thing u shld insert onto ur eye.
it'll be two weeks, if i wear my lenses tmr!
but i seriously do need an aftercare, its still uncomfortable aft adaptation.
how?
mb my tears are really viscous.
one of the side effects of rgp.
i tried my best alr.
Saturday, November 1, 2008
cont'd from my barrier post.
Sometimes we put up walls. Not to keep people out, but to see who cares enough to break them down.
but qn is will u let ur barrier be broken down if someone really cares to break it down.
mb that someone who cares is someone who u care for too, but what if its not?
definitely ur barrier is to keep them out in this case.
is there smt as a Scar Barrier or a natural barrier?
definitions:
Scar barrier:
a barrier that is not formed from birth but by the events that hav scarred u, so as to prevent u from other scarring.
Natural barrier:
a barrier that is not formed aft events that scarred u but as ur natural way of getting along with others.
aft thinking over and over umpteen times, i hav finally came out with a conclusion.
there might b such things but i guess the simple aim of a barrier is to keep others out to protect urself.
if u truely feel mutual towards someone, i bet the wall will jus be an invisble wall that u are jus waiting for the other party to cross over.
but if that someone is not who u had really cared for, but she still cared enough to break down ur wall, then u'll get a new friend! its only a matter whether u will let her break down ur barrier.
we formed walls not jus to see who cares enough to break them down, we form walls to wait for the right person who also cared enough to break it down, keeping the wrong ones out.
pls comment actively, will love to hav a second opinion.^^
i hope u hav gotten ur ans.
related posts:
http://daifukudorayaki.blogspot.com/2008_10_01_archive.html (october- an analogy)
http://daifukudorayaki.blogspot.com/2008_08_01_archive.html (august- barriers)
but qn is will u let ur barrier be broken down if someone really cares to break it down.
mb that someone who cares is someone who u care for too, but what if its not?
definitely ur barrier is to keep them out in this case.
is there smt as a Scar Barrier or a natural barrier?
definitions:
Scar barrier:
a barrier that is not formed from birth but by the events that hav scarred u, so as to prevent u from other scarring.
Natural barrier:
a barrier that is not formed aft events that scarred u but as ur natural way of getting along with others.
aft thinking over and over umpteen times, i hav finally came out with a conclusion.
there might b such things but i guess the simple aim of a barrier is to keep others out to protect urself.
if u truely feel mutual towards someone, i bet the wall will jus be an invisble wall that u are jus waiting for the other party to cross over.
but if that someone is not who u had really cared for, but she still cared enough to break down ur wall, then u'll get a new friend! its only a matter whether u will let her break down ur barrier.
we formed walls not jus to see who cares enough to break them down, we form walls to wait for the right person who also cared enough to break it down, keeping the wrong ones out.
pls comment actively, will love to hav a second opinion.^^
i hope u hav gotten ur ans.
related posts:
http://daifukudorayaki.blogspot.com/2008_10_01_archive.html (october- an analogy)
http://daifukudorayaki.blogspot.com/2008_08_01_archive.html (august- barriers)
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