Full stop.

知道有一天会有如此的结局 - 决定关闭我的博客.
你相信每个人在这世界上是孤独的吗?
谢谢你们不离不弃的锁定我的频道.

Good bye:)

Tributes!

A month of “heart throbbing” farewells and inebriated celebrations。
Belated mid autumn’s day celebration…
Given the 21st bday key to freedom…
Clad in green army uniforms to be patriotic?
Upcoming, Lj’s bday!


我故意踩了你一脚， 假装很抱歉，
也把汤匙插进去你的食物，微小的说了声谢谢。
在你生日当天我们陪你在麦当劳度过，
也递给你我身凭写个你的第一封信和礼物。
我们度过了无数个缺眠的夜晚，
也争吵了无数个芝麻绿豆的小事。
如果没有宵夜聚会，我想我也没有机会和你们有那么多美好的回忆， 在学校三年的时间也没有那么深刻的接触。只怪知己住的太远又没钱搭德士。。。
谢谢你们那么捧场，愿以后还有更的记忆能收 进脑海里- 不要和我做最熟悉的陌生人。

又走到了隧道。

记得当时我们俩没说什么，一起默默地走着。
每次走进隧道时，都在想你现在境况如何。
我们几时有机会一起步行呢？

中秋节的回响

小的时候，每逢中秋妈妈都会带我和哥哥碧山公园去。
那时我住在十五楼，走到走廊前，望眼就是碧山公园。
妈妈总会查看“山情”，才带我们下楼。
当时的中秋节，没有昂贵的月饼，只有简单的灯笼和蜡烛。

长大后，搬家了，妈妈再也没有带我们去玩。
剩下的寄托就是偶尔在家附近的西饼店烘培出来班兰口味的冰皮月饼。

童年的中秋就如此。

今年，终于有资金买盒像样的月饼回家！
再也对以前班兰口味的冰皮月饼没有兴趣，取而代之的是报纸上口碑好的酒家月饼。
分到了往返儿时游乐园的票，但一切计划却被当晚的大雨熄灭了。。。
看着那张空头票， 发现原来童真并没有想像中可以那么轻易的换取。
我要找回那时的单纯，可以吗？

“每当我想妈妈的时候，我就去打架，去赛车，弄得浑身是伤。。。”

每当我想起她时我便会独自流荡，和朋友玩到三经半夜。
累的时候就会把她忘得一干二净，空闲时就会不经意想起她。
我要如何摆脱那孤寂？
如果没有遇上他们我或许没有如此苦恼。
我想拥抱他，因为他才是我一生的知己。

At my wit's end.

Mulling over my plight...
The season to fall sick again.
Feeling terrible and all my plans are foiled...
Wonder its the extraction of my precious molars, the drastic climate change or the chocolates i succumbed to after months of abstinence?
Time to admit it- i'm a weakling.
i want the antidote for instant recovery:D

投函的乐趣

"写信有一系列“收工”工序，选择信子和笔，写字，把信装入信封， 写上收信人地址， 贴上邮票，走到邮箱或邮局去投寄，身体力行的的连串动作。这“手工”过程是有生命的， 因为加入了自己的创造，一封信和一张纸不一样，一封帖上邮票的信，是不是盖了邮章，就有很多很多的故事。
写信的时代或许已经过去，不过每个人还是可以寻找自己记录记忆的“手工”。

收到信件的人那时的感觉和表情也永远是个谜。"

~adapted from Zbw

Ephemeral joys.

What can 7 people do, without our personal computers in the premises of a less familiar environment?

We gorged.
We laughed.
We teased.
We played.
We slept.
We ran.
We kicked.
We emulated.

Nonetheless, we enjoyed.
We didn’t have much then, perhaps just a deck of cards. :D

Supper!

This is to reply to ling's post- i was awake against my own will...

Sighs, it was a bad day after a sleepless night!

First thing i reached work 30 mins later :(
I was like dozing off in the midst of taking history:(
Was like caught in action and think i lost patient's confidence.

it was a busy day but i found time to take short naps- went to the toilet and sat on top of the seat and put my head down.

my senior saw the dark rings around my eyes and asked:
u went out to play ytd?
How many hours did u sleep?
i replied: none.
senior: why did u follow ur retail friends to chiong like that. u know u work in a clinic, u don't get offs tmr...
i replied: how did u know all of them are off from work tmr?
senior sighs.

it was a terrible feeling ><, even though i had a sumptous breakfast before work.
Conclusion: Sleep is just irreplaceable!

Beware: my bro has been reading my blog posts!

Slippers?

We were engaged in a conversation abt buying things....

Friend A: i'm broke but i want to get a pair of slippers!
Me: Huh? How much can a pair of slippers cost?
Friend A: $90 plus, i saw it on the net and liked it very much!
Me and friend B: Slippers cost so much meh?? Just buy a normal pair! LOL

Me, thinking: Havaianas don't even cost so much...How come i didn't know such an exorbitant pair of shoes existed... OH, i know what-

Me to friend A: Are u talking about birkenstock?
Friend A: Eh, how come u know?
Me, guiltly: Cos i'm wearing one now... Is it like friend C's shoe?
(Friend C is wearing a pair of Neckerman's.)
Friend A to friend C: How much did you pay for your slippers?
Friend C: I bought it for 30 plus nia...
Friend B, bends down to look and asked me: How come you buy such expensive slippers?
Me (trying to find an excuse for my spendthrift habits):i wanted to buy it since a year ago and waited till the price drop...
Friend B: Oh, i c. Never mind, its worth it if u really like it a lot!
Me: Really, i thought we all agreed its expensive?
Friend B: the satiable feeling is priceless:)
Friend A: ...

Morale: Price is what you pay, value is what you get! :D

i got myself a new...

This belongs to yours truly!
My mum says i can go cycle alone cos smaller wheels=safer, unlike my bro.
The person said it was supposed to be a stunt bike, you can turn the front part 180 degrees.

My cycling history...
Cycled on 4 wheels when i was young and my mum didn't teach me how as she was protective of me and afraid i will fall:(

Begin to cycle on 2 wheels when i was sec 2.
Learnt from my class mates during a class bbq
She told me: " control the bicycle, don't let it control you"
It took me an hr to be able to ride smoothly. :)

Thereafter, i only cycled once when i had chalet in sec 4
The most i cycled was in my poly years, when they took me on night cycling trips.
That was when i truly learnt how to manouevr down slopes, wriggle in between narrow corridors etc.

Why do i like cycling so much?
I like the breeze in my face, cos i can never run at this speed!
i frown when i cycle as i'm concentrating really hard, but in my mind i'm singing and enjoying the ride^^

Night Safari!

My first trip to night safari at the age of 20.
Nothing to be proud of but i'm really glad to be there. :D
Its the first "night zoo" in the world ever since it opened in 1994 by SM Goh. *Kudos*

If u like photo shoot and don't have a DSLR, this is not a place to be- you can't take pictures cos photography might alarm the animals. (so there is no picture attached to this post XD)

Take the tram through the whole park- it was amazing to see animals out at night, You practically feel like you are wandering in a jungle with animals at close proximity.

You must eat more carrots before you go- you need really sharp night vision to search for the animal in the foil of darkness.

You must not be afraid of the dark- beware! its pitch darkness except for a few bulbs scattered here and there.

If you like bats you must go- there's an area where you walk through the passage with fruit-fly feeding bats roam and skim through your hair; feel the wings fleeting just by your ear.

Walk through the trail if like to explore- the experience is one of a kind with the walking throught the thick foilage with the night breeze.

Finally, watch the animal show and be enthralled by how well trained these animals are- otters know how to sort rubbish.

If you dislike the hot sweltering heat of the zoo, this is the right place for you!
~The sight of the taiwan zoo; cycling on top of animals (i sat beside lilin!) reverbated in my memory.

Binary?

Things are better in 2?
My forgetful nature has driven me to get things in double, so i'll never need to retrieve them from my bag and take the risk of forgetting to bring it out.

Now i have things in two sets-
Like i have 2 lip balms and 2 hand cream so i can leave one in my bag FOREVER and keep the other one on my bedside table. COOL? i think this is "MUDA" (wastage of effort) according to the company policy of toyota.

Seriously i'm treating the symptom and not the cause.
SIGHS!*

Thanks to you too!

Have recieved lots of tokens of appreciation from patients since i started out work...
here's the list:

Bread from breadtalk, provenance, sun moulin
Cakes and pastries from breadtalk, taka, Indonesia
Ferrero rocher(24's), shortcake
Fruits like mangoes, oranges
Homebaked cheese cake
&
Pyjamas! (patient exports pyjamas from indonesia to sg)

He says; " do you know what it means when they pay so much for their medical fees and still bring us gifts? it means we have gone beyond the call of our duty."

I went home feeling a sense of satisfaction that i have made a difference.
As one of the nurses say, " we offer good service but it dosen't mean that we are servants."
i count my blessings for being able to lend a helping hand:D

Where's my wisdom?

Had 2 of my lower wisdom teeth extracted on Tuesday.

The process:
Anaesthetic was instilled into my lower cheeks.
Then we waited for like 10 mins before the operation starts.
OMG, i don't know what they are doing with the pliers as they knock out my tooth.
In the midst of it all, the dentist said:"one tooth out!"
The second one was out after some resistance...
Didn't know my wisdom was so intangible but nonetheless i was appeased that everything was over.

But well, not quite yet as i start to bleed profusely and was in malaise the whole night.
Changing cotton pads every half an hour, gargling chlorhexidine mouth wash and eating painkillers before i sleep.
When i woke up, everything that has happened culminated in the fact that i was unable to chew!
Devastated with no breakfast? Was beginning to regret...cos it wouldn't need any intervention if i was not querulous with my teeth structure. Finally understood the despondency my friend had when she had braces and can't eat when i was eating porridge while staring at the plate of nasi lemak my neighbour was eating during lunch.

To compromise imperfection or dolor?
I have chosen the answer, inregardless the makeover will go on.

What makes you different.

Why does my heart jump a beat when i stare into your eyes?
Why is it that the things that you say tinkers my heart?

I love the way you walk me home, the way you fluster over me and probe me for answers.

i do enjoy your attention:)
Thanks for making me feel alive; cos i know i still feel for someone.

Answers to 心理测验:

On relationships(friendship)~

The oldest
You treasure your loved ones and seeks for everlasting relationships. You treat people you love like antique or wine; the longer the relationship the more invaluable and stronger the brew.


The most expensive
You are practical and prefer to see the value of relationships as something tangible.
You aim for the epitome in life and may unknowingly equate money with relationships.

The smallest
You prefer to go with your heart and have friends or relationships based on interests. You will find that your close friends changes from time to time when you have new interests.

My express transit.

Takes 128 to work on weekday mornings.

FYI: 128 line is not reflected on the bus directory as it only operates during peak hours; morning 7.30-8.15, evening 6.45-7.15.
Its an express service that transits me from my house to TANGS smoothly (if there are no traffic jams:D)Most importantly it saves my fats from brisk walking to the MRT station and squeezing in a mass of bodies just like a can of sardines.

I tend to leave home at this specific timing that will but there are days when the bus arrives earlier and i have to lament not leaving home earlier. But i never repent.:( Nowadays i have to dash across red lights and chase for the approaching vehicle. Thankful to know the driver, cos he waits for me:D (wonder if one day he will say to me: can't you just leave home earlier?) The real excuse is time has surpassed my Titus watch- its lagging behind time...(just like my life is)

So thats how my day starts; by saying gd morning or thank you (when he waits for me) to the driver and alight opposite ION and find myself gazing at the LV display that is designed by a famous architect honoured with the entitlement of being the flagship store in Asia.

心理测验

Ok, this is an interesting one... my first psychological question.
Passed by Faber castell (how much can colour pencils cost?) shop in ION orchard on friday and saw the display:

The oldest pen
The most expensive pen
The smallest pen

Which one will u choose to possess?

Birkenstock:D

Eyeing them for a really long time...
Still rmb trying them on when i went for xmas gifts shopping with Hui and Ling.
7 months and i finally got it today!
7 months is long enough not to be impulse purchase?
So wells, i'm happy with my peach colour madrid:)

Made in Germany. Since July 2009:

New kid on the block!

Bright neon lights in the city!
you guessed it, i'm talking about ION orchard.
Went to have a glimpse of how it's like and wants to comment abt it after reading the papers.
Its a must go for all shoppers. (Don't i know everyone knows that too. LOL)
Lvl one to four is like Paragon but b1 to b4 (wonder how they can dig so deep?) is just like takashimaya.
And there's so much more Japanese cuisine!

But main point i want to make is:
i can satisfy my craving without gg all the way to clarke quay for my favourite bakery;
named Provenance Bakery and cafe:D
Its equivalent to Petite Provenance at Central with more variety and choices.

Going to become bread face or confectionery face soon><
Even the recep of the bank i frequent knows it without me bringing food into the bank, what can i say?

If i ever forget...

As everyone knows, i'm the blur min.

there are many instances when i don't reply sms and recieve calls on time.
these are the scenarios when smt like this happens:

1. i didn't bring my phone out
2. i didn't charge my phone
3. my phone is low batt
4. i misplaced my phone (esp when i reach home, i usually ans calls when my phone is in my pocket)

Anyways, the above explanation or excuses are my reasons when i make calls with public phones or with the phone in my clinic.
Well, its happening ever so often that i'm not feeling detached from the outside world when my phone is pronounced "dead".
i know no one is gg to forgive me for this so i'm using a bright pink hello kitty lanyard from a close friend to make sure my phone is more conspicuous for me to rmb. Let's hope it works! :S

Guide Dogs Association of the Blind (GDAB)

Was present at the event " Clubbing for cause" at Butter Factory to be a reporter.
Really thankful to the friends who accompanied me. I'm proud of you, donors!
All except 2 had their virgin clubbing experience.

I must comment that clubbing is kinda of boring- seriously don't know whats going on.

Was glad i had a task?, at least i did mingle with some crowd who were present at the event.

FYI:
The first and only guidedog in Singapore is named Kendra Kua (go search it on facebook!), and its owner Mr Kua (same chinese surname as me but from the Teochew dialect) is blind from the day he was born.

Interesting facts he shared when i bombarded him with questions was that the worse thing to born without sight is that he can't imagine how big things are, i.e. he can feel how an aeroplane looks like but he have to visualise it himself. When people tell him that zebras are 20 feet tall figuratively, he has to ?climb the steps to know how high 2 storeys are.
Another one: The guide dog is very duty conscious when the hurdle is put on his back, when he removes the hurdle he is just as lively as any dog.
Guidedogs are trained by sighted individuals when they are born, they are about 2 years old when they are finally qualified as a trained guidedog and will be left to the visually handicapped owner for a few weeks of training at the US before they keep each other company for life till the dog retires.
Guidedogs can be allowed to take public transport and even SIA cos they are not pet dogs but dogs with a mission.

Treasure your sight and support the cause. Donations goes to training guidedogs in the US for Singaporeans:)

My optometrist friends standing behind, front (left) is the organiser and right is Mr Kua with Kendra.

Happenings.

Double bliss and double happiness!

Today's my bro's bday!
Bought for him Acuvue dailies and gave him a cinnamoroll bday card from taiwan:)
His poly clique gave him an adidas t-shirt; black with the infamous crown logo in a myraid of colours + a big corrugated cardboard pinned with stars that held their individual handwritten wish for him.
Meaningful enough?

Last sat was my cousin's wedding!
When it comes to my maternal side, i'm the youngest in my generation...
Therefore, i have several cousins who are married with some blessed with children as old as 13 yrs old this year.
This time it was the 27 years old's turn to be a bride:)
The groom used to be her secondary school friend and they kept in contact with a whole bunch of friends and only got together much later.
FATE?!
Anyways, she shared a part of my childhood and i see my teen years diminish when she was on stage wearing her gorgeous gown- how time files "viciously"...

OMG!

Beware, The REAL thing is about to start.

i started off with a quiet disposition,
in the course i started to be rebellious,
now i'm getting my deserts!!!!!!!

i should have listened to my colleagues and not provoke him, but wells i can't help it. =P

He's starting to punish me for all my undoings....><

Dr AE: " Do u go home and cry when i scold u?"
Me, startled: " No, i rather spend my time sleeping...cry for what?"
DR AE: " cry la, i thought you will be upset. You really don't cry?"
Me:>~<"

If i really stop gg for the BOA gatherings, pls don't take to heart personally-
i mus be staying back to serve my term.

Patients.

i guess the most meaningful part of work is not just about doing what u do but also about the people who u meet in the course.:)

We've seen:

people of differerent nationalities (French, Bangladeshi, Vietnamese, Japanese, English, German...);
people of who speak a thousand tongues;
people in the face of truth, knowing their eye conditions;
people who went through their darkest moments together;
people who have survived the ordeal;
people who have recovered from the trauma....

i've seen them, spoke to them and hopefully touched them.

But...i there's nothing i HATE more than PEOPLE WHO ARE STUCK UP,
they are absolutely incorrigible. Wished i could throw money in their face. LOL

So Dr AE says:
" Cos life is unfair, u have to make it fairer for yourself"

Anyways, its enriching to have been through the whole process with them and i'm thankful to offer my helping hands. To learn to be empathetic and caring towards their plight is something i have yet to master.

Befriended.

She was always lonesome till she found her.
One fine day, she left abroad and she thought she will be solitary again, cause deep in her heart she knows she will never be able to find anyone like her.

She found them but she still searched in vain for HER.
One day, HER appeared and she chose her over them.
They did not leave her, instead they went to confide in her how much she meant to them.

She was ineffably upset and realised how careless she was to forgo them;
sense of belonging was what she had longed for.

Now she has more friends than she yearned and she is taking a step back to enjoy being loved and ultimately find out who truly cares:)

Sanctity

The incessant thumping of the machine,
accompanied by mellifluous pop music in the background.

With everyone on their guards and concentration never intermittent,
carelessness is intolerated and meticulous work highly in demand.

Where blue and the green are immiscible;
blue stands for sterility and green stands for contamination.

The solemnity of the place, never violated and promises conditioned with laws unbreached.

I do not desire to be a nurse or the doctor but the operating theatre intrigues me to be inquisitve.

"Shaxubumi"!

Yea, my long time CO friend got back from London last sunday:)

It was great to meet her and my other ex-co friends at Waraku, the place we had dinner before she left.
She gave me tea leaves in exquisite petite tins while i bought her like 5 chicken rice mix for her to bring back! LOL..
So London produces tea leaves...well, she says tea drinking is part of their culture.:)
One of us who happened to transit thru Japan bought us Shiroi, White lovers if u translate in Mandarin. this is the first time i have tasted it and was nonetheless impressed by the taste. Its no wonder why the confectionery is so famous.

Anyways, our topic for dinner was travel mates.
we were discussing abt our overseas trips with friends and schmates during the past year...
A: there was this person i really wanted to give him a return ticket back!
So,
Conclusion: Choose travel mates wisely!
How to choose: you must have a leader; at least someone who is serious in the mid of fun. People who are enthu and keep the spirits up. Fun loving ppl who dares to try new things out. People who play and play like there's no end. People with common interests pertaining to sight-seeing. People who are physically fit so they will brave storms and rain with you!

In lieu with our 14-18 Sep genting/malacca trip '09.
P.S. i haven't apporached him yet!
*keep fingers crossed*

Expectations.

When expectations falls short, people are disappointed...

What do you expect from a friend or from a relationship?

i used to have a very good friend and cause both of us "loved" each other too much, we have high expectations of each other's commitment to the friendship.
As it progresses, we fought over the simplest things and we always thought the other party would understand and give in...

On another viewpoint, how about in unrequited realtionships?
The person who person who tried his/her best in contributing to the relationship may expect the same from the other party and when things are not so straightforward, he/she treats himself as being neglected.

Its tough to balance things lest to say relationships. Just do not measure what you give and you will be surprised by the rewards:)

For her.

This is truly from the bottom of my heart.
Thought meeting up with her alone after such a long hiatus will be awkward...
but to my utter surprise, i felt the same-just like when we started out with our friendship.:)

i guess the key is: to be natural, to be frank and be comfortable with yourself and at ease with the other party.

Must promise to see each other at least once in 3 months ok!
And you better feed my mailbox sooooon!

What will u do if its doomsday?

i'm sure many ppl will say live it to the fullest...
this question was asked by my colleague.

my ans: i want to stay at home.
the others: stay at home and do what
me: stay at home and keep my family company or stay nearby to spend quality time with ppl for the last day.
this colleague: i thought u want to find a man and do * !
Me: huh?! why would i want to do that? LOL.
another colleague: what if ur family memebers does not want to spend it with you?
Me: i still want to saty at home! (thinking of PO)

this other colleague (whose child is born last year on the same date as me!): i will want to hug my child till it happens.
Me: what about your husband?
this other colleague: who cares about him...

So what's the conclusion?
we care about our family members and the love of a mum is too nobel to be describable.

From CO to Facebook.

i don't know what to blog!
haha, just want to tell u guys that i'm still alive.

Nvr tht i'll be into facebook but i log in almost everyday, just to maintain the restaurant. lol. think i'm like an idiot in the game...we discuss how to maximise our workers after CO.

told my CO teacher i'm going for a break but i'm most likely gg to quit...
guess how many years i've been in CO?
since i was sec 3, so its coming to 5 years alr.
i want a clean break but my friends encourage me to cont'd to practise, i told them not for this year, yet i'm afraid that after this year i'll be too old to catch up.
Age is catching up on me...i shld just stop wasting time.

i gave up my baking, my part time job, my crafts... for my CO. it was definitely a hard choice to make. i know my friends don't blame me, but i feel obliged to apologise, cos without me i know the team won't be the same anymore...
i don't want to leave but i'm stuck in between too many things.
Tbis july, on my cousin's wedding dinner will be my last performance for the year, or is it?

A friend asked:" so what do u like most abt being in CO?"
i joined CO cos i wanted a chance to perform but subsequently it was cos of my friends which became the reason why i turned up frequently for practise.
i will always rmb my love to be on the stage:)

09/06/2009

Posted on 13/6/08:
我们约定好明年的六月九号， 七点正在克拉玛头。
希望到时我们能履行承诺。

已经一年．今年我们并没有兑现诺言．
是一切出乎预料，　还是缘分－上天的安排?

有点困扰…

Graduation!

The moment we have awaited 3 years in SP.
not excited about the glam on stage, but more about seeing my friends wearing the graduation robe together with me and seeing their parents:)
thanks to Ruth, hui zhen and nicole can be with me besides my brother and mum on this important day!
was caught by people, handshakes, cameras and more cameras after the ceremony.

Wishing all the undergraduates all the best in their study.^^

shall quote from the student speaker:
learning never ends after you graduate, you are uneducated the day you graduate and stop learning.

see, i pay attention:)


My mum and bro


Nic on my right and Zhen on my left
(holding the Royce chocs with an espirit notebook they gave me.)


My boss on my right and my school director on my left
(Dr AE got him to take a photo tgt)

Disappointment.:(

i'm late for co, wells:(

this was what happened last sat:

i told my sis i'm not gg for sun prac anymore, at least for a yr.
she was startled and said :" how come?! i want to talk to you..."

i told my sis's sis that i was not gg for calli lessons for one year.
she had the same reaction.

sighs, not for money, not for fame, i jus want to enjoy the weekly pleasures in my life. i jus want myself to rmb that i'm not a money slave...
sighs, if i had a choice now.

had lunch with Dr AE aft work and he asked me which workplace i prefer- what a political qn. some of his questions hard to ans; requires gd phrasing and beat around to bush, guess i really need to learn the way he answers.
and i told him i won't work on sun if not for the quota that i have to meet.
then he probed, "what abt the money?" my ans was i would rather do what i want.
its not that i don't like my retail place but its just cruel to deprive me of my interests.
he likes what he does too much not to be a workaholic. lol.

(side track: he is the cover person on Prime magazine (may to june), if u are interested to find out who my employer is.)

if they don't clash, i wouldn't have to grumble.
sry for super disorganised thoughts.
need to rush for co.
and i need to print my quota book, been delaying it cos i'm afraid to see the requirements i have to hit:(

New additions:)

Life is plain as it is, no photos with people but things!



my bro just bought this to cycle to sch everyday.
its kind of too high and heavy for me:(



nice shoes?
my favourite colour.



see! Anticipating the day. hey, who sits near me?

Random.

A quiz from Hui Ling!: (this is like super long! Zzz)


Choose 21 ppl:


1. Lynette
2. Eileen
3. Zhi Qi
4. Mei See
5. Siew Ching
6. Eugene
7. Yi Zha
8. Mei Rong
9. Sam
10. Deirdre
11. Lilin
12. Hui Zhen
13. Nicole
14. Si Hui
15. Hui Ling
16. Xue Ting
17. Qing Hui
18. Hao Jin
19. Linjian
20. Jason
21. Dr AE

How did you get to meet 7? [Yi Zha]
on the last day of pri 4-we were streamed into the same cls

What would you do if you and 15 never met? [Hui Ling]
No one to share my "world" with me and teach me how to look gd- i would have been uglier than now:(

What will you do if 20 and 1 date? [Jason & Lynette]
i will believe in fate- its simply too unbelievable

Have you ever seen 17 cry? [Qing Hui]
yes

Would 4 and 16 be a good couple? [Mei See & Xue Ting]
Absolutely not!

Do you think 11 is attractive? [Lilin]
Yes. Da jie!!

What's 2's favourite colour? [Eileen]
No idea. she always wear black or purple

When was the last time you talked to 9? [Sam]
8 May 09- in person

What language does 8 speak? [Mei Rong]
Mandarin, English. not sure if she knows dialect..

Who is 13 going out with? [Nicole]
SOMEBODY

What grade is 12 in? [Hui Zhen]
Currently studying in NTU Accountancy, just finished first yr

Would you ever date 17? [Qing Hui]
Nope. Sorry >.< Where does 18 live? [Hao Jin]
Near Lakeside Mrt stn

What's the best thing about 3? [Zhi Qi]
She's my friend! she's a gifted student.

What would you wanna tell to 10 now? [Deirdre]
make me laugh:)

What's the best thing about 20? [Jason]
He's gg to be a Literature teacher.

Have you ever kissed 5? [Siew Ching]
haha, of cos not

What's the best memory you have with 21? [Dr AE]
being brainwashed while sitting in his consultation room

When is the last time you saw 6? [Eugene]
Last last sat- there was no co prac on Vesak day

How is 14 and 12 different? [Hui Zhen & Si Hui]
Different personalities. lol.

Is 19 pretty? [Linjian]
if she is more confident in herself!! Linjian, i want to see u in makeup:)

What is your first impression of 11? [Hui Zhen]
She's so not serious- giggling when we were taking pledge

How did you meet 20? [Jason]
School- first 2 months in CJC

Is 1 your best friend? [Lynette]
Sorry, she's my mei mei^^

Have you seen 18 last month? [Hao Jin]
yup.

When is the last time you saw 16? [Xue Ting]
my techer's departure dinner

Have you been to 5's house? [Siew Ching]
Twice, i think

When is the next time you will see 10? [Deirdre]
Graduation, i suppose?

Are you close to 13? [Nicole]
yes, for sure:)

Have you been to a movie with 4 before? [Mei See]
Once. The Nancy Drew Movie

Have you ever gotten into trouble with 8 before? [Mei Rong]
No, she's really guai.

Would you give 19 a hug? [Linjian]
Yes, if she's ok with it:D

When have you lied to 3? [Zhi Qi]
Don't dare to-she's smart enough to see through it.

Is 16 good at socialising? [Xue Ting]
She's gd but i don't think she likes to?!

Do you know secrets about 9? [Sam]
we know each other too well to keep secrets

Describe a relationship with 12 and 14. [Hui Zhen & Si Hui]
They are both my close friends:).

What's the best thing about your friendship with 9? [Sam]
We are both Aquarian- in a similar world

What's the worst thing about 6? [Eugene]
too narrow minded?

Have you ever had a crush on 12? [Hui Zhen]
Mb, if i'm a guy- would want to have this kind of wife

Does 14 have a bf/gf? [Si Hui]
Yes.

Have you ever wanted to punch 1 in the face? [Lynette]
Why would i want to do that??

Has 21 met your mother? [Dr AE]
No, mb on graduation

How did you get to meet 15? [Hui Ling]
School. More specifically, flag day. -_-

Do you ever physically hurt 3? [Zhi Qi]
we don't fight, we debate.

Do you live close to 7? [Yi Zha]
ya, he lives across the st from me

What's 8's favourite food? [Mei Rong]
Thinks its ice cream

What kind of car does 1 have? [Lynette]
Her dad owns a 7-seater

Have you ever hung out with 9 before? [Sam]
(Why the qn on 9 like the same kind?) YESSSSSSSSSS

If you give $14 000 to 14, what will she/he do? [Si Hui]
She will move hse?!

5 ppl to do this quiz:
Anyone, anybody, somebody, someone, you!
(try it, its fun, makes u think abt ur friends!)

Swine Flu.

shall be a newsreporter to report how the situation is like in Mt E:

everyday, i have to reach the hospital earlier to fill up a form with my particulars and then get a thermal scan or a temperature check.
if i pass the screening, i get a round sticker with today's date.
everyday is a different colour; yellow, orange, green, blue.
Currently collecting it unless it accidentally drops off.><
if i had to run an errand during office hours, i will see for myself the long queues waiting for their "body check".
in my mind i thought, what if someone with mild flu and slight fever who doesn't sneeze in front of them gets through??
its just a safety precaution- to show that we are actually alert and doing smt about the influenza.
WHO says in the news today that we shld always take note of our hygiene.
i agree, esp in a clinic environment.
anyways, moral of the story is to pray hard that carriers doesn't come into our territory.
wishing everyone gd health!:)

P.S. don't step into hospital premises if u are sick; u are quarrantined for sure.:(

No off days:(

worked twice at my part time place.
i work weekly- every sun, full shift
Retail shop: The Lens men @ Compass point.
(not jus eyecare. we care)
had supper with them.
Met some of the ppl from parkway...freddy, poon, can't rmb anymore.
(enlighten me, ling!)
they were chitchatting and the conclusion i derived is:
clinic is really different from retail and so is adult life.
jus happy to live in my la-la land for now:)
- not upset with my retail work but apprehensive about stepping into adult phase.


P.s.seriously don't know how much disc i can offer you, my friends!>< but u can still call on me if u need optical devices and contact lens:)

The 2nd month.

to avoid disappointment, u ppl shld jus read my blog weekly or mb fortnightly...

its the 2nd month since we left school, and the first month since some of us started work.
how does it feel to leave school?
hmm, and to be out in the society at this tender age?

memories of school keeps flooding back,
there was not a day which i was not wondering if i was on holilday, away from school.
i didn't like school so much, its just that a student has more time on his hands, flexibility to choose whether to attend class.

hard to meet ppl nowadays with my unpredictable knock off timing.
had my friends wait for an hr or more for me once:(
so don't feel rejected if i don't want to got out with u after work; i don't want to make ppl wait for me.

fortunately, i managed to meet up with my schmates for a farewell dinner for my lecturer who's gg to Australia to study Phd.
there's always a sense of nostagia when i meet up with them; felt at ease just like the good old days.
Observing the gap and changes amongst us:
the taste becomes different, the topics become harder to understand, the hangouts and desires draw a line between us...hopefully we still have a common topic years from now.:)

when we dispersed, i felt detached; as if somthing is missing from me. hate that kind of feeling; like the heart listens to the brain no more.

miss the old times and the carefree-ness.

STOP Emo-ing and get back to ur report, Ms Quah!!!

pls be reassured,
i got nice workmates, treat my work place like my second home:
we live in a 4 room flat; visual function room, Visual field room, Consultation room.
living room is the reception area in the clinic.
my family; father (DR), mother (receptionist) and an older brother (my optometry senior).
Address: Blk Mt E medical centre, #07-04
so we lived under one roof harmoniously or happily ever after...

Stereotypical.

ppl judge, no doubt abt that.
ever since i started out work i hav to constantly remind myself not to do so.
some of the things that made my specs "fall off":

a dr who looks like a criminal (dark and foreboding)
a poorly dressed bangladesh who is the wife of a the director/CEO of a bank company.
a lady who is simply dressed but is the wife of the founder of LG?
How abt a caucasian who used to be a stuntman in hollywood? (he's the owner of a sugar plantation 2 times the size of spore- i told him to draw 2 dots on the map =X)?

how do u differentiate them from the rest of the population?
they are all ppl, so treat them with respects, u'll nvr know if the person in front of u is a billionaire (me!)

What abt??
a doc who owns a toyota camry vs a hawker who owns a mercz??
Ultimately, its what ppl want in life... (quoted from my dear Dr AE)
anyways, all the ppl who come to mt e if they are not rich, they want the best medical treatment. :)

Donuts.

mum bought these after work.
i really don't want to say this, but its so fattening.:(
sgw?!

Brownie.

this is the soft toy i'm supposed to bring on my m'sia trip.

KT stamps!

bought this from post office.
i spent a fortune on them, time to show off:)



is purple the new trend?
sry, but i jus can't have it the right way.



here's how the horoscopes stamps look like.
whats the best combi, my favoirite character and my pastime:)

the goldfishes.

we were watching ponyo and then i talked abt my brother's goldfish.
here they are!! my dad feeds them when my bro is in army.
goldfishes are boring?
i used to feed them but they only acknowledge the food and not the person, so i think they are superficial creatures with stm and i stopped feeding them.:(
i lived with them everyday until one day my uncle, an avid pet fish breeder came and my mum told him the fishes has grown.
this is the prove:




see, they are looking at u. say hi:)

Working life.

everyone is like curious how my work had been so far...
still adapting to waking up this early, like 8am class?
still trying to get into the workflow...
still getting brainwash by my boss...
still struggling to maintain a work life balance:)

everyone envy that i have weekends off and go back home early.
yes, i do appreciate that cos i still feel like a student.

no doubt i have the desire to go out while working. i acty missed my friends! (shall not reveal who keeps flashing back in my mind in case ppl get jealous =P) no matter how much i want to stay out aft work, working drains my energy and i jus can't wait to go home and slack.

anyways, starting out to work is tough cos when patients see u, they doubt ur capability cos u are so young.

so, do rmb to be more patient to the neophytes, k!

watched final destination for the first time on channel 5 ytd.
think its pretty cool to be able to forecast the future with bits of solving mysteries like the nancy drew's detective story. sad ending though.
they say coming soon is the movie that will make ppl not go for horror,i want to watch! wells, its not that i like horror but i like the challenge, mb i'm jus sadistic.><

hope u girls out there adapt and enjoy ur working life!

Promises.

as i grow up, i find it harder to keep to promises.
probably its that u hav more things to do, but it might jus be that u hav a mind of ur own and jus want to break that promise cos u jus feel like it.
u might hav forgotten but the other party have not...
promises are supposed to be sacred, aren't they?
they are words of gold too, right?
but now i simply dislike keeping up to them, cos its

stressful+commitment+effort+time+ppl

no matter what is it, rmb to keep ur promise, don't be like me!

anyways, b4 work commences i hav put up a tag board for every visitor cos no one seems to like to put down their comments:)
sry i if seemed out of sorts these days, been thinking a lot abt work, life...and the most disturbing is to put on make up ><
was traumatized by them when i was a chinese dancer in pri sch.
think i hav really aged.
not a student anymore.
and the ans to y i'm not continuing school is i want to work first.
reasonable?

getaway to M'sia!

just got back and felt like blogging aft this long hiatus:)
today is the last day to slack!
so i'm gg out soon!
so busy with filling in my schedule- no wonder i'm always so stressed up><
will upload pics later.
scenery was nice, their hses were nice and big, their families were hospitable, we ate super a lot...
will abstain from seafood and chicken from today onwards!
and biscuits when i finish those that i have bought. :(
do i sound like i'm gg to be a vegetarian? lol.
anyways, will be cont'd!^^

Dusty.

sry i was kept busy with so much stuff.

bascially i was trying to recuperate my energy for my next trip which is tmr,
practice for my perf ytd,
pack away all the stuff i hav bought
give away the stuff i bought,
upload a lot of pics on facebook,
meet some friends,
do some hsework,
and forgot to blog:)

gg on a short trip to m'sia b4 i will start work at mt e hospital.
see how i will maintain this blog then.
this is not farewell, so don't wry! ^^
will be back in spore on thurs.
bye!

back:)

yeap, i'm back in my brother's room using the com to do my "duties".

taiwan trip was like a bash, and i do think travelling is stressful no matter how relaxed u are. jus like how shopping can take ur mind away for that whole duration.
so i'll give a brief update on how my 11 days in tw was like:

WEATHER
weather was rainy and cold, i feel like i'm in a toaster oven now:(
it was one of the happiest time in my life, to not hav any sweat at all the whole day.
u don't feel u are dirty cos of the not humid weather.
we didn't even wash our clothes cos u know it won't dry up in that weather.

PEOPLE
the people there are generally more friendly than us. they are more service oriented and the welcome when u enter their shop is like heard everywhere, not only in giordano. u don't think they are intimidating when they say it. they are so attentive to the customer's needs that they even make u feel bad if u don't buy anything. i hav to substiante
with reasons why i don't want to buy so as to make myself feel less gulity for not buying.><
they are more initiative, like they clear their own plates. there, u hav to rmb to clear up before u go, not remember not to clear up after urself.

FOOD
its bascially a wide variety of chinese cuisine there. from dumplings to steamboat and many kinds of animal stuff like organs and pig's blood cube. they eat all kinds of things i guess. the food there is nice, i nvr thought i will be so in love with oriental food. missed my mum's cooking as well:)

TRANSPORT
they hav all kinds of modes of transport, from old style choo choo train, buses, transit train, bullet train... i think u can't find any other modes of transport they don't hav it there.

TOILET
in the capital, then will u see toilet bowls for sitting on. in other places squatting toilet bowls rules. this hoilday was like a training for me to aim accurately. but their squats are designed in such a way that that there is minumum spillage.

ACCOMODATION
during the 11 days we moved to different places. not sure how they call it in english but its hostels and not hotels. quite homely for one. but they hav more varieties than motels and hotels we have here.

it was really an eyeopener to see how chinese in other places live. ^^

the most interesting experience i had overseas was gg into a uni to eat in the sch canteen. we felt like we are intruders but other than that we thought it was cool to see their culture.

the most breathtaking experience was seeing the clouds, standing on the mountains and feeling the air.

the most disgusting thing was the toilet at tamshui:(

the nicest food is their bread there. how different? its the texture and the fragrance.

the most fun thing is venturing into every 24 hrs convenience shop. they hav so many things! not jus f&b and daily neccesities.

the cheapest thing is their dumpings and baos. u can eat like a whole long with 11 pieces for only abt 5 dollars.

the scariest thing was the screaming condor ride. its lower than bungee so i don't know why i'm scared.

the highest thing is their taipei 101. nth much to comment since manmade strutural buildings can be as nice and as tall as they want it when humans use their brains.

the most popular thing is their smelly beancurd. u see them and smell them everywhere that u will jus get used to the smell.

the thing i dislike most is the rain. it gets really chilly and gloomy and sleepy with the cold weather. not the ideal weather for activities i will say.

finally, the best thing was living and spending time with the 6 of them during the trip. though we squeezed like nobody's business, suffocated under each others' breath, me and po being laughed at, being impatient with each other like we do at home... (so much bad things to talk abt u girls! lol =p) we enjoyed each other's presence and i thank everyone for letting me be in this trip.
what a better way to end this trip? to get a keychain with hellokitty that says everlasting friendship from hui and ling.

its not about where we go but untimately its abt how we endured with each other during the journey.

Taiwan!

taiwan is our destination!
SQ 878 1025 T3 1mar

will be back in 11 march.
hopefully we'll all be able to fulfill our expectations this no stress hols!

these few posts shld be able to last 11 days of missing me :P
read carefully, read more than once!
pardon my grammar and shortforms cos i really got to pack my luggage.

for my friends in uni:
study hard n jia you for exams!!!

for my sch mates:
happy hols or have a meaningful atttachment.

for my pri sch mates:
we'll play bridge when i come back and we'll snack on sun biscuits.

for my co mates:
all the best for perf! i'll join ur back in practise on 14 and 15 march.

lastly, for my travel mates:
are ur ready? ^^

wait for me!!!

graduation! (3)

out of my own will:

For the helpful ones:

I rmb her as someone impatient cos she is super particular abt speed. I know she is smart for the way she carried out our experiments so conscientiously. If not for her, the lab would probably be burned by now with my carelessness. She is none other than my long term partner, I see her everywhere. Though we weren’t close with our partnership I was glad she was in my class and she was my partner. She compliments me well. :) I will rmb the 2nd last day of clinic when she sat in my room and talked to me for an hr. it was the first time we talked together for so long though we knew each other from the start.

I rmb her as a vase cos she is pretty and I don’t know her well at that time. It was a blessing to have her in my final year project group. Trust me, her efficiency is superb. I wonder how she does it. If she was the leader mb the project won’t be so screwed up. Glad to have her fighting alongside with me and deir in this tough battle. And I take back my words that she is a vase. :)

I nvr knew much abt her her except for her interests and recreations. She is well known in class as ms gold and no one else deserves the name more than she does. She was in my gems class twice and we were nonetheless impressed by her results. Now I know her better thru alpha and I hope to get to know all 3 of them better but time has no allowance for regrets.

thank you class for leaving me with so much memories and keepsakes. its time to put a full stop but all of us has dropped our pens cos we don't want to end this...

cheers for friendships, anyone?!

graduation! (2)

By ling’s demand:

For the most impt people in my sch life:

She was the first person I met in cls, (I met ya lun in the first day of orientation). Then, I was behaving the same as I behave now, joking arnd but her face didn’t smile a single bit. I nvr talked to her again for the first sem of year 1 cos I tht she can’t tolerate clowns like me!

I still rmb her for her abrupt rudeness and absolute inpunctuality (there’s no such word btw). She hasn’t changed a bit in that sense, though I find myself becoming more like her >< - going more into her world and finding my true identity there.

I rmb the first time I saw her was in the sci lab and she was sitting beside me… I dropped my pen but I was so afraid of saying “excuse me, can u help me pick it up?” cos she look so fierce. I waited till the debrief ended and she moved away before I picked the pen up.

I rmb ppl telling me that she and I look alike cos we both had long hair tied in a ponytail with no fringe. Mb the amk ppl hav the same traits! Lol, but it was certainly nice having a tong xiang in class cos I can talk to her all abt it when I miss my hometown.

I rmb her as a princess cos of the way she dolls up herself. Pink! She was wondering why there’s such a person in the world who can talk non stop. I was blabbering to her the whole of the train ride though I hav no clue what I told her.

I can’t rmb how I got to know her? Think its because she is always the first one to reach the dover ctrl stn when we meet everyone at the train stn in first year. She reminds me of the old me… so, when I miss the old me, I talk to her. Miss the times mtg everyone at the ctrl and being late tgt, though I hate waiting for ppl.

I rmb saying that she is withdrawing from the course cos she didn’t turn up for sch in the first week. Then when she appeared, she introduced herself:” I make ppl laugh and they are always very happy with me arnd” (something like that, correct me if u want) then, I was thinking to myself, how can a person be so ego. It turns out that I can’t agree more to that statement. Lol.

I rmb her as my secret pal, cos of the way we communicate thru letters even though we see each other during lectures. I first wrote to her cos she commented that my handwriting was nice during jap cls. It sparked off f’ships and opened the door between me and her classmates.

From The Last Lecture by Randy Pausch:

I never made it to the NFL (National Football League)

My romance with football started when my dad dragged me, kicking and screaming, to join a league. I had no desire to be there. I was naturally wimpy, and the smallest kid by far. Fear turned to awe when I met my coach, Jim Graham, a hulking, six-foot-four wall-of-a-guy. He had been a line-backer at Penn State, and was seriously old-school. I mean really old school; like he thought the forward pass was a trick play.

On the first day of practice, we were all scared to death. Plus he hadn’t brought along any footballs. One kid finally spoke up for all of us. “Excuse me, coach. There are no footballs.”

And Coach Graham responded. “We don’t need any footballs.”

There was a silence while we thought about that…

“How many men are on the football field at a time?” he asked us.

Eleven on a team, we answered. So that makes twenty-two.
“And how amny people are touching the football at any given time?”

One of them.

“Right!” he said. “So we’re going to work on what those other twenty-one guys are doing.”

Fundamentals. That was a great goft Coach Graham gave us. Fundamentals, fundamentals, fundamentals. As a college professor, I’ve seen this as one lesson so many kids ignore, always to their detriment: You’ve got to get the fundamentals down otherwise, because otherwise the fancy stuff is not going to work.

***

Coach Graham used to ride me hard. I remember one practice in particular. “You’re doing it all wrong, Pausch. Go back! Do it again!” I tried to do what he wanted. It wasn’t enough. “You owe me, Pausch! You’re doing push-ups after practice.”

When I was finally dismissed, one of the assistant coaches came over to reassure me. “Coach Graham rode you pretty hard, didn’t he?” he said.

I could barely muster a “yeah.”

“That’s a good thing,” the assistant told me. “When you’re screwing up and nobody says anything to you anymore, that means they’ve given up on you.”

That lesson stuck with me my whole entire life. When you see yourself doing something badly and nobody’s bothering to tell you anymore, that’s a bad place to be. You may not want to hear it, but your critics are often the ones telling you they still love you and care about you, and want to make you better.

There’s a lot of talk these days about giving children self-esteem. It’s not something you can give; it’s something they have to build. Coach Graham worked in a no-coddling zone. Self-esteem? He knew there was really only one way to teach kids how to develop it: you give them something they can’t do, they work hard until they find they can do it, and you just keep repeating the process.

When Coach Graham first got hold of me, I was this wimpy kid with no skills, no physical strength, and no conditioning. But he made me realize that if I work hard enough, there will be things I can do tomorrow that I can’t do today.
Even now, having just turned forty-seven, I can give you a three point stance that any NFL lineman would be proud of.

I realize that, these days, a guy like Coach Graham might get thrown out of a sports league. He’d be too tough. Parents would complain.

I remember one game when our team was playing terribly. At half time, in our rush for water, we almost knocked over the water bucket. Coach Graham was livid: “Jeez! That’s the most I have seen you boys move since this game started!” We were eleven years old, just standing there, afraid he’d pick us up one by one and break us with his bare hands. “Water?” he barked. “You boys want water?” He lifted the bucket and dumped all the water on the ground.

We watched him walk away and hear him mutter to an assistant coach:” You can give water to the first-string defense. They played OK.”

Now let me be clear: Coach Graham would never endanger any kid. One reason he worked so hard on conditioning was he knew it reduces injuries. However, it was a chilly day, we’d all had access t water during the first half, and the dash to the water bucket was more about us being a bunch of brats than needing hydration.

Even so, if that kind of incident happened today, parents on the sidelines would be pulling out their cell phones to call the league commissioner, or maybe their lawyer.

It saddens me that many kids today are so coddled. I think back to how I felt during halftime rant. Yes, I was thirsty. But more than that, I felt humiliated. We had all let down Coach Graham, and he let us know t in a way we’d never forget. He was right. We had shown more energy at the water bucket than we had in the damn game. And getting chewed out by him meant something to us. During the second half, we went back on the field, and gave it our all.

I haven’t seen Coach Graham since I was a teen, but he just keeps showing up in my head, forcing me to work harder whenever I feel like quitting, forcing me to be better. He gave me a feedback loop for life.

When we send our kids to play organized sports- football, soccer, swimming, whatever- for most of us, it’s not because we’re desperate for them to learn the intricacies of the sport.

What we really want them to learn is far more important: teamwork, perseverance, sportsmanship, the value of hard work, an ability to deal with adversity. This kind od indirect learning is what some of us like to call a “head fake”.

There are two kinds of head fakes, the first is literal. On a football field, a player will move his head one way so you’ll think he’s going in that direction. Then he goes the opposite way. It’s like a magician using misdirection. Coach Graham used to tell us to watch a person’s waist. “Where his belly button goes, his body goes,” he’d say.

The second kind of head fake is the really important one- the one that teaches people things they don’t realize they’re learning until well into the process. If you’re a head fake specialist, your hidden objective is to get them to learn something you want them to learn.

This kind of head-fake learning is absolutely vital. And Coach Graham was the master.

graduation! (1)

uiwinH

it was while reading my autograph book that I feel that I have graduated.
This time, there were no tears, I was smiling, smiling cos I shared so much beautiful memories with them.

I remember:
The hui min who chewed her wholemeal bread so slowly.
Who always greets ppl with a broad smile
Who is always being laughed at ><

Recap…
Time for me to recount and give ppl their autographs
First up is the minority ppl in cls.

I rmb the guy who i didn’t want to talk to till I found out that he acty knew my pri sch mate. He was the first male clsmate in cls who I spent time alone with as we attended jap cls tgt. I can always rmb how he always complained abt the timing of the class. I can still visualise the times we have spent on the train home. Although I’m always blabbering nonsense, he always looks at me in a serious manner. I’m equally grateful to him as much as I hate him for he made me see another side of things in another perspective but the way he imposed them was too harsh. Harsh to the extent that the stubborn me realize the need to change.

I rmb he was the I don’t know how many guys who approached me on how to chase a girl. The friendship started when he said he will follow me to wherever I want to go, the confidence that I will hav somewhere to bring him. It paused on the day when he said the place we go will be determined by the bus that comes next.

I rmb him as someone who I always laughed at but at the same time admire his confidence. He brought all of us countless happiness on all kinds of occasions. He was the first guy in cls I handmade a bday card cos he said he wanted it.

I rmb him as someone who I had no impression of in yr 1. The first time I spoke to him was during our class’s first chalet. We were sitting by the drain with our bicycles parked beside us while the boys with direction sense hovered over a map. I cannot imagine a guy with no direction sense and neither could I imagine a guy who had absolutely no tolerance of alcohol. Nonetheless he is a loyal friend like no one who enjoys speculating and hav shifty eyes.

I rmb him as the first guy who ventured to join an all girls grp to do project in the whole 3 years. He dirtied his hands from my bicycle on the first cycling trip which I was entirely thankful for. He is the “darkest” person I hav ever known cos he likes black so much.

To Class DOPT02:

Its been a change of life events meeting everyone of you.
I remember how I couldn’t find my classs on the first day of school. How I was the first to begin the series of self introduction. Then, I was shocked that so many people was previously from the cca that I wanted to join when I was in sec sch- band.

I’m not sure how by coincidence I got into a clique nicknamed SHD.
We evolved into SHD100D thereafter.
it was cause 3 little girls find it bored to eat by themselves and soon, we find each other indispensable.
They changed me:
They made me fat, make me feel loved and make me broke. :( Most of all, they taught me how to survive overseas together.

In sec sch, I was a girl who spoke little of her opinions in class. But the boys in class made me shout at them. Used to get so terrified by them that they haunt me in my dreams. I have dreams of them asking me: “have u refilled your bottle today?” They brushed up my cycling skills and chased away my dark clouds. They taught me “how to live in your own world”. They changed how I expressed myself.

The school may not hav imparted the SP core values to us, but we have left each other bountiful friendships, enough to last us a lifetime.
Thank you for sharing a part of 02 with me. I have enjoyed my 3 years tremendously.
A place where laughter is shared and tears shed.

No matter where we go and whatever we do, have faith.

Before I forget ur names:

Ann-marie. Sylvia.
Andrew. Jonathan. Kamen. Ping Han. Eddie.
Aik Leng. Chanel. Sheryl. Deirdre. Ruth.
SHD100D

its vday again!

can't rmb how i spent last yr's vday..
2 yrs back i spent my vday slogging and there was super a lot of couples coming in to eat.
the couple who left the deepest impression in me is the girl who dropped her "invisible bra" in front of me!
lol, my supervisor(male) picked it up and asked, " what is this?"

it was really funny and it'll definintely be more amusing to see me narrating in person. to this day, i still wonder how the girl coped without it. :(
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was walking out from the train stn on fri and sold mothers with their children selling roses...extra income to cope with the recession?

my mum's valentine gift for u all:



she made them!!!


thanks crappy deir for ur tulip on msn:)

and boys if u want to be really nice, give all the girls flowers!
i had a male cls mate who bought the whole cls of girls flowers, we tht he was really gentlemanly!

Reconciliation.

as the sch year ends for me and for many others,
shall begin with a sad post b4 all the pics of my sch mates comes flooding in.

do u realise when things come to an end or when ppl are gg to die,
they seek forgiveness, they forgive and then comes acceptance and reconciliation.

its good in the sense that we bury the hatchet and not carry on with the not so favourable memories.
however, don't u think its kind of insincere, cos u "forget" the old things not cos u don't rmb them.

whats done cannot be resolved, forgotten or left undone.
in truth, not many ppl can really forget the things the ppl they hated and the bad things ppl did to them. not jus cos they want to revenge but it has an impact on them, big or small...

i was wondering: does everyone who seek reconciliation gets the perfect ending..
y not? since they are asking acceptance. what is so hard abt it?
its nth easy when it comes to matters of the heart. jus like how do u explain the chemistry between two ppl?

how abt if those ppl who seek reconcilation jus wants acceptance and didn't cared a thing abt why they were rejected in the first place.
these words may sound harsh: they had not learnt from their "mistakes" or they jus think that the mistake belongs to others, cos it was the ppl's fault to reject me.

new year's baby!

proud to be born on the 2nd day of lunar new year!
today marks the end of the new year and i shall recount on the things that happened to me before and aft my bday.
was kept busy since 3rd feb and no time was wasted on my bday exp for sleep..
been a long time since i hav been simultaneously gg for activities during my bday period and cutting so many cakes! when my mum asked me to get myself a bday cake to celebrate at home, i gladly refuse and told her i had enough:)

was a thrilling and "natural bday"...

3rd feb: we went bungee!! my clique presented me with my new titus watch and sat thru the whole ride with me at the singapore riverside.
my long time love: sun moulin's green tea cake

5th: cycling at ubin. still a poor cyclist though they said i "level up!"really loved the natural landscape, so pristine! Alpha cls and dinner thanks to sheryl the gold! it kept our minds thinking abt life...

6th: celebrated with zhen and nic, it pains to see them lugging their "go home " bags. was a simple dinner and we were glued to our seats till they closed. zhen brought me for selegie's tau huay and butterfly fritters. we boarded the last train bound jurong east and she was the first one to see me turn 20.
my all time favourite: cheese cake from secret receipe

7th: to indulge in more naturalistic things, so i was at botanic gardens. funny things was i dislike phototaking but i camwhored with the wings and horns. camwhoring is really not my cup of tea, tired of the posing not of the trekking. 3 cheers for ling's instax n polaroid, xt's videocam and SLR, finally not forgetting my digicam!
cut the cake at shi min's hse, that was my first time visit and gladly shared my cake with the renowned ryu and jerome. went to co prac and was showered with gifts and wishes. at home, my family sang bday songs for me. saw my mum's face gleamed, wonder if she did the same 20 years back. ^^
my long time want: Guanji from Rive Ganache (recommendations from zhen)


8th: i tht i was sick of choc cakes, so buffet lunch at my co to celebrate new year was a gd change but my friends brought in a cake during the prac while i was kept busy tuning the instru. their faces shone under the candlelight, what can i say? the last thing i want to do is to cry in front of them.
my new love: Prima deli's choc truffle?!

i can nvr thank everyone enough.
my family for bringing me up these long 20 years without feeling that i'm nth but a burden and my friends for tolerating every bit of me.
your gifts were nth comparable to the time ur hav spent with me but they are the things i can keep and be constantly reminded of how blessed i am.^^

my wish is to pass on the love.

promise to upload pics when i get my hands off sch stuff aft next week.:)

its been a long time..

5 days seemed like a really long time,
cos its so hard to endure.
it seemed like such a short time,
cos we still hav to hog the com aft cls everyday to finish our report.

glad its all over, temp.:)
two more ppts to go and an important test, then i will be on my way to graduation.

was eating lunch with one of my fyp mate aft submitting the report,
we were like thinking back abt some gd and bad times in sch- there was a tinge of sadness in her tone.
i guess thats not jus all that we will miss when we graduate...
wishin everyone success in the test that determines our graduation.
somehow i hav a feeling we will all leave the sch tgt, cos we can't do without each other.

a big thank you to my generous friends! one who invited a whole gang of us to eat new year lunch, *starts to stuff myself with dumplings* and the other who tht i was there to send an email but i sat behind his laptop for more than 2 hrs and having made him walk me home. ^^

HAPPY CNY!

may everyone has a great year in the year of the ox.

my new year wishes are as follows:

peace, health, prosperity and happiness to everyone.
graduate with flying colours!
find a job and still able to cont'd to go co n calli:)

See u again?!

New year's coming!

like in 2 day's time.
but so many of us are still bugged down by our umpteen assignments.
was planning to go back to chinatown, but looks i don't hav the time till aft new year.

what does going to be 20 mean to me?
it means preparing for adulthood and maturing...
so i shall keep my new year resolutions simple this year, no more fancy and impractical goals.

to be more patient with the ppl arnd me.
spend more time with my family and treasure them.
stop taking pocket money and learn to depend on myself.


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this is to respond to deir's blog post.
(lazy to tag)
we were taking train, lilin and hj was gg back to m'sia so i took the jurong east train with them. they left at kranji but we had a pretty much talk while waiting for her friends.
we were saying what we will do on the last day of sch.
hj say she will most prob cry, then i say i will be infected too.
so lilin say we will cry tgt. lol.
so we were thinking who will be the most unexpected person to cry.
the girls are out of the picture exp chanel, cos hj says she doesn't cry even when she watch her shows. if the boys cry most prob they are jus sad to leave their gay partners or they are upset abt gg to army more than leaving the class.

no more see u tmr in a mths time unless we are colleagues.
but its truly my fortune to hav met u ppl.
i hav grown changed and learned.
like all the cliches in the serial shows i enjoy,
if i hav another chance in my recarnation, i want to be ur classmate again. :)
my only regret is the xmas cls bbq =X
no see u tmr but we can see u again.

my LG KF350!

got my new phone, and my second phone:)
refer to 9 dec post.
got the new phone on 18 jan, an early bday gift from my bro.
i wanted the pink one. he knew, but got me the white one cos the white one is nicer in his opinion and he thinks white rep purity.
lol, but white phones are so common?!
nonetheless, it was still a dream come true, cos i wasn't even saving for it in the first place.:)

thanks gou for the gift and i enjoyed using it!

smt else to look forward to with the new phone.
this year's new year shopping was such a fluster.

not again?!

caught the flu bug
and the virus bug.

sniffing
and scatching my legs.

i hate bacteria.

will be back soon:)
resting in progress.

Windmills.

was a chinatown a few weeks back, on the 26th of dec.
how it was prospering with life.
the crowd is smt u will awe at on a weekday.
the windmills are one of the novelties of this year's new year,
believed to be able to turn ppl's bad luck into good luck.
i always liked windmills, don't u?
jus cos it keeps turning and turning...

anyways, wondering how me and my clsmates are gg to celebrate cny with so many things on hand. hmm, how come i don't see my friends in the other courses struggling like us? the cons are we don't even hav time to shop for new year clothes. not like i like shopping but it jus seems like smt is lacking if u don't shop for the new year.maybe its an excuse to want a break. we are runnign a marathon. the ending point is the last day of school.
how i wish i hav time to see the windmill turn round and round.:)
is that selfish of me?

~ling recover soon and watch windmills with me:)
~hope the windmill cheers u up!

u hav forgotten our promise, pls rmb to fulfill it.

a quarter sis.

i always wanted a younger sis
and my co friend who is 2 years younger wanted an elder sis cos she only has a sister 4 years younger and an older brother the same age as me.
we decided to xiang ren and we became half a sis to each other.
the other half is as a friend.
her younger sis, who was also my co mate divided the "portions"
and told me "then u are my one quarter sis."
if there's such a thing in the world. :D

i realised i like her more than i used to,
not cos she's my half a sis but cos of her personality.
she's the kind of girl who had the loudest and the craziest kind of laughter.
everyone thinks a girl should behave in a prim and proper way...
i fail to agree, i think there's no problem with her laughing so jovially spreading the laughter and that's the kind of cheerful character u see in no other.

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another lesson from mr sim.
he says we shld not say we want to try to do things.
cos try is a word that gives urself an excuse not to do well.
u mus say u want to do things.
he likes to talk abt da dao li more than i do.
concede defeat to him.

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finally, the much awaited finale of little nyonya.
lessons learnt?
to preserve ur our history and bury the hatchet.
still hav that very sadistic epi in my mind, if u know what i am talking abt.
wished i watched that epi of the culinary and embroidery competiton.
nice ending? i tht it was creative of the editor to twist the story like that though it might not hav satisfied all the viewers craving for the perfect happy ending.
waiting for the viewers review on the news tmr.
well, its all over, or is there a continuation.
sheryl, mus learn how to cook dishes and sew!!

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ppl of all religions,
pls pray for my friend who contracted dengue during new year celebrations.
wishing her a swift recovery.
ling, be brave k!

鸿

渴望进入他们的世界，
遗憾的是没有进入他们的世界。

我们不是属于不同世界的人，
只是缘分没安排我们进入彼此的世界。

不是闯心者而是路人甲。
一个飘浮不定的影子，没有固定的归宿，
在汪洋寻找能停泊的海港。

早知会孤独，为何当出大费周章去寻找。
只怪我性格太孤僻，
无法融入他人的生活。

但如果时间能倒流，
我还会选择如此。
因为自由价最高。

宁愿学会孤立也不选择依赖。

first post of 2009!!

hey everyone, happy new year!!
hope ur had a great countdown ytd or this morning.
lol, i was so close to achieving the first things i wanted to do this at the first second of 2009. wells i was prepared to go to slp but was jus glued to the television.

how i spend my last day of 2008?
i unraveled the mystery of my home.
5 years without visitors and then invited my friends from pasir ris and boon lay to stare at the data analysis program the whole aftnoon before bringing them arnd amk for tea break or early dinner.

she said, isn't it much better to go out and spend time with ur friends and walk arnd than staying home staring at the screen all by yourself?

will think twice to agree, thats y i didn't give her an ans ytd.:)
happy new year!!!!!